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Narg
27 November 2008 @ 01:33 am
it's
my
fault.
why was i so stupid? i know inside of me, that i shouldn't have.
 
 
 
Narg
01 November 2008 @ 03:29 am
Where's the light again?
 
 
Narg
22 October 2008 @ 04:06 am
I can't fucking sleep.
 
 
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Pain, Jimmy Eat World
 
 
Narg
I'd die without music.
 
 
Current Mood: sore
Current Music: Work- Jimmy Eat World
 
 
Narg
29 September 2008 @ 03:42 am


.........You would have never  ran away, right?

oh boy, oh boy, oh boy. 
 
 
Current Mood: listless
 
 
Narg
11 September 2008 @ 02:07 am
Hi. -heart.-
 
 
Narg
01 September 2008 @ 10:51 pm

My parents left me alone. They're coming back tomorrow and it's gonna be atleast a few months untill they leave again.

Is it asking too much for one more  night? I know it's been pretty much the whole weekend.

I felt kinda hurt...actually, it really hurt me. Am I really controlling? Ugh...=__=

 
 
Narg
19 August 2008 @ 01:30 pm
 
 
 
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: The Other Promise, Kingdom Hearts 2 soundtrack
 
 
Narg
18 August 2008 @ 12:42 pm

Why can't I just accept it and be happy?

Why do I expect so much? it's dumb. I'm happy. I am. Why do I have to push it?



I'm gonna ruin my relationship. I'm so scared. Please, stop doing that.

 
 
Current Mood: nervous
 
 
Narg
Whew. Okay. Wow. What. The. Fuck.


 I hear it all the time. "Wow, you're beautiful." 

That's a lie.
 
I hear that I have a great personality.

That's also a lie.

People lie.

'cause if that was true, i wouldn't have been rejected six times now, would have I? Goddamn liars. 

I feel used. Hurt. Thanks. 

I thought it would be safer, but I guess not. I feel so empty. what the hell? I wish someone would tell me what i'm doing wrong. 

So, I'm liked, right? I like the person back. Okay, great. what do we do? We stare at each other? Mess around? Do nothing? Go out? Yeah, i think that might be a good idea. :D 

Yeah. Fuck. No. 

Reeeejection.


Why can't someone want to be with me? What's wrong here? I thought i could numb out the pain, but i was kind of surprized, and blown away and really, really hurt. 

I'll be okay again.  My lights are flickering. Think it's some sort of sign? Why am I so stupid? 


What I hate most is that all my security with him is gone. He's trying to proctect himself. And even if it wasn't a direction rejection, the fact that he couldn't take it at first, was enough to make me skitter away. I'm so confused. and hurt. Is this all i'm worth? 

How could I ever think that i'm dateable?

HeartheartheartLove.
 
 
Current Mood: gloomy
 
 
Narg
03 February 2008 @ 01:35 pm
 Man. I don't even know.  


I'm so sick of pretending everything's fine at home.
 
 
Narg
28 January 2008 @ 04:51 pm
Oh man, oh man. So, like, starting off with bad news, I was involved with a minor car accident, scary, man. I'm okay, though. unharmed, expect for the pain in my foot for stomping on the break so hard, and a stress headache.  But, don't be worried, people...person ( seeing how only one person will probably see this. xD )

On another note, I've gotten love confessions from rejects. Like, man, ew. They aren't even beautiful. No, they're gross. Get yo' internet lips away from mine.

Just a reminder to people who've forgotten, I still adore and idolize Gwen Stefani. =D -loyal fan.-

In case anyone was dying to know, 'cause well, it's really important;  I really want hair like Gwen's. I'll try when I'm 30.


Uhm, well, good news...is that...I'm still hanging on in college. getting my masters in sociology.  Whoo!!


Okay, I'm done. Bye.  
 
 
Current Location: That one chair, remember?
Current Mood: NOTHING
Current Music: Paramore, Misery Business
 
 
Narg
10 December 2007 @ 11:02 pm
                                                    


                          I am so tired.  Not just like I want to sleep tired.
                         I'm exhausted emotionally and phsycially, I guess.
                          I think my pain this winter has taken it's toll on me.
                          I always feel so weak when this happens and kind of sad.
                         I wish so badly that my prince charming would come out of hiding,
                          I really wanna be embraced by someone and dearly loved.
                           who is ever going to find me attractive when i'm like this? 
                                                       It's such a turn off.
                                                        








                                             I guess I'll feel better later. I miss Nessa, she'd talk about that stuff with me.
 
 
Current Mood: gloomy
 
 
Narg
04 December 2007 @ 09:26 am
I'm going to the emergency room.
 
 
Narg
03 November 2007 @ 12:49 am
I love you.
 
 
Narg
20 October 2007 @ 02:02 am
I don't remember feeling so low in a while. Haha, Wow. this is...not new. I can't believe it. No, wait, I can.

Karma. I believe in it. Do you? Infact, I believe it's happening now.


I'm still single and I feel ready for a lover. Sometimes, the feeling of wanting one becomes a stinging feeling and completely fouls my mood. I've had such bad expirences. My heart hurts and it wants someone nice to it.

I don't trust people. Least of all trust them with myself. It's better to learn that no one is trustable and to protect yourself best in the best interest.


I have guilt thats eatting me inside out and it's not cool.


My worst fear is annoying my friends. But, sadly, I don't trust them sometimes which hurts my poor bandaged heart evern more.



I've grown cold towards the world and it's people, I know.


If anyone was to like me out there in "that way". I honestly would not understand why.
 
 
Current Mood: drained
 
 
Narg
15 August 2007 @ 06:34 pm
Grr. I feel annoyed. Why? I wish I knew.

-sigh.-
 
 
Current Location: The almighty chair
Current Mood: Grrr
Current Music: Rawr.Grrr.
 
 
Narg
28 May 2007 @ 06:27 pm
I feel so accomplished! I found the rest of the series to Shamanic Princess! I remember seeing it when I was really young, but I didn't really understand it, but it looked so cool! So, I'm like "Yeah, I could probably get it now of days" and crap. So, I'm...happy..;_;
 
 
Current Mood: accomplished
 
 
Narg
Yo.
Wonder Girl, anyone?
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Wonder Girl
75%
Black Canary
71%
Faith
67%
Big Barda
63%
Hawkgirl
58%
Huntress
54%
Supergirl
54%
Power Girl
50%
Starfire
42%
Catwoman
42%
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38%
Wonder Woman
38%
Batgirl
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29%

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Narg
17 March 2007 @ 11:14 pm
                                          

            So, I bet a lot of people are wondering "Where did Vi go??"

             You might have noticed that I haven't been online in a long, long time.    

             I've decided that I want to get away from the internet. I'm seventeen and going off to college.

             I don't want to feel attached to here again. I finally feel really free for the first time. I feel like I don't have to worry about the drama on here. I feel good about it.
              
             I just dropped people, I know. But, I don't know anymore about people on here.

             I had enough of things on here. The lies, the broken promises, the abusive situations, the clingy-ness.
            
             You see, I don't have problems at home. I have muscular dystrophy and I get sick easy. No big problem. But, I'm not like my mom, I am not a counselor. I can't help with people's problems. A long time ago, I decided to stop involving myself in problems, because I really don't want to make it worse. I know it can help people to have an ear. But, I don't want to be that ear anymore. It makes me feel  bad inside and I get depressed easy.

            Not everyone is like that, and I'm happy for you. I still want to get away.

           I don't REALLY know people on here. I MOST likely won't see you.

          I'll be on some days. I'll be happy to talk to you.

          I've gotten all my grades up to A's and B's and I'm keeping it.That is a first. I'm going off to college. It's really exciting. I can't wait, it's like, I'm finally growing up. I've moved on to the next step.

          I believe everyone who feels they can't live without the internet will one day be tired of it and move on. It's what a lot of my friends have done and I finally understand now.
                 
            
             People will feel betrayed by this. I'm sorry. I am.



Farewell, Everyone.

Love,


          Victoria.
 
 
 
 

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